|Experiencing God and Transformation|
|Written by Sherry|
|Friday, 12 January 2007 09:03|
I'm in the middle of a major re-evaluation of my life, including my spiritual life. Fr. Mike's post below got me thinking afresh. I asked myself this morning:
Where have I most powerfully experienced God and transformation in the course of my life? Not where I should have experienced God and transformation but where I have, in fact.
It is striking both for what is there and what is not. Certain themes have been very consistent over the course of my Christian life, both Catholic and Protestant:
Presence, Relationship, Listening, Talking, Healing and Integration, Wisdom, Obedience, Beauty
Because of my work and natural intellectual interests, I spend a lot of time doing original theological and pastoral research, creating new resources and training and teaching. It is exciting, energizing, and fruitful and I am very grateful to God for the opportunity to do so. But what actually nurtures my lived relationship with God and heals and transforms me is different.
I have often felt like a "bad" Catholic (much less Dominican!)because Scriptural or theological study, the liturgy, or the sacraments (except the Eucharist) never come up on the list when I am honest. And no doubt I am a bad Catholic. But would I become a better Catholic if I could just drop the "shoulds" and accept peacefully what, in fact, seems to be my "way"? That it is okay to have a "Catholic" head and a "Quaker", relational, experiential, obediential heart?